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Recap:
- got the job ($11.25/hr essentially, but it's full-time, and I'm going to die. I also kept the old job. I'm fucked.)
- dad got into a car accident, but it only knocked off the bumper and broke one headlight. No one was hurt. He hit a god damned tourist from California who was laughing because it was his cousin's car. Good work, people.
- spent 4 days back home, doing nothing but eating lots of shit and playing games. And yes, it is different from what I normally do, thank you.
My life sucks. OH WELL. Quite a departure from last post.
Maybe I don't need a higher purpose in life. Maybe I just need friends and a smile. Maybe I can be happy if I just do whatever I want (with some exceptions). Maybe everything will get better if I just have a good attitude about it.
Well, ok. I do need a higher purpose in life. Just... not yet. Not yet. Even if I had one, I wouldn't be able to do anything about it yet.
Thank you to my father, goodbye to my mother, and to all the children, congratulations!
How's that, Will?
It's also the first day I willingly got up without a reason to. I'm up at 7 AM, and I have no homework or work to be doing. It's also the first day I've let natural light into my room for any reason other than reading.
Something's happening. Am I becoming optimistic?
Don't worry. I'll still be angsty.
I may be getting another web solutions job soon -- one that actually pays money and not anxiety. I'll keep you posted.
I mean so little to so few. And I don't know how to fix it.
And I'm not fishing for compliments. This is a real feeling I'm having.
I don't know if you could even consider me "in college" with the amount of work I do. Bleh. This really sucks. Procrastination is my arch-nemesis, but I also like it because it means I don't do anything. I'm really fucking up here...
aghaghagh I'm so tired of this shit.
Hi liz.