Here's the deal. Let it be known.
I'm "taking some time off" from college because I blew my scholarship and I don't have any money and I hate it. I'm also taking some time off from everyone because I'm sick of not having any time to think for myself and I'm tired of doing the same things I do every day and then going "Oh well, another day wasted. Maybe tomorrow." Please just leave me alone for a while. I'll let you know when I feel like doing anything. Feel free to keep inviting me to things but don't be surprised when I say no. I'm wallowing in my own shit for a while and it feels kind of good. I'm getting back to basics, being emo, being cliche, doing the things that I know are unhealthy but I can't stop because I have no self-confidence and I want to make myself writhe. I don't know what else to do.
But it feels pretty good.
Few people I know understand the idea of just wasting time. Everyone's like BUT BUT BUT and I just want to fucking slap them in the face. Just enjoy your time while you've got it. Your job isn't going to matter for shit when you're dead, and neither will having wasted your entire life away. Nothing will, so just do what you want. Jesus, is it that hard to understand?
I'm not really yelling at anyone in particular, other than myself. Just step off, nukka. God damn. I'm so emo.
Oh yeah, and happy new year or whatever.