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You just fell for the trap.
>>: # Sunday, January 30, 2005 _
What a hectic weekend. I'm so glad all of that crap is over. It's time for new crap, though. I came home and slept for 12 hours, and I woke up with a headache. JOY.
When you leave friends behind, it's for a reason.
>>: # Saturday, January 29, 2005 _
These extended personal conversations may be taking their toll on my hardiness, but they sure are enjoyable. They make me feel as if my existence has value, as if I have a purpose -- to discuss said purpose with others who are just as thoughtful.
Probably not sleeping tonight, but who knows? I may just crash.
So I'm thanking myself for wondering why I'm thanking you.
>>: # Thursday, January 27, 2005 _
>>: # Tuesday, January 25, 2005 _
I find complex things funny, normal things uninteresting, and simple things hilarious.
I suppose that really accentuates my self-diagnosed bipolar disorder.
Being one in a million sucks when there are 6 billion people.
>>: # Monday, January 24, 2005 _
To follow suit, here's part of the free verse poem in iambic tetrameter I wrote for that thing in English:
Nothing but an empty shell, he's
Floating down the river bed as
Human driftwood on its course to
Find the demons in his soul.
I don't remember the rest and I discarded the MS Word file at school. Oh well.
Pit is absolutely killing my thumb and lip. Bleh.
>>: # Saturday, January 22, 2005 _
So I did not make National Merit Finalist. Oh man I'm so crushed. It is not like I did not see this coming because of getting straight B's and C's in all my classes. What am I going to do now? Now I will only get $1000 a semester instead of $1500 a semester at UTD for a stipend. (I actually don't know the numbers, but that is representative of how much I care.)
>>: # Friday, January 21, 2005 _
OMFG TURNING 18 WAS LIKE TWICE AS GOOD AS I EXPECTED IT TO BE (nothing times two equals nothing) (two plus two equals five)
Also, Michelle is nuts.
>>: # Thursday, January 20, 2005 _
>>: # Monday, January 17, 2005 _
I am a failure (for being not nerdier than that and not more loserly than that)
Oh well. You got served, Liz.
>>: # Wednesday, January 12, 2005 _
My life is a constant stream of crap. The tail end of it is reflecting on the crap aforementioned. I don't even mean it in a negative sense. It's just bullshit. There is nothing of value happening. Ever. Of course, I don't even know what value is, nor will I ever.
>>: # Tuesday, January 11, 2005 _
>>: # Sunday, January 09, 2005 _
You're just an object that's pretending to be human. Look deep within yourself; do you perceive the almost intangible and physical presence that lurks below your waking self? Inside your darkest dreams... it is there that your true identity lies.
What a great quote. I couldn't resist posting it.
Thank you, Anno.
>>: # Friday, January 07, 2005 _
Why can't I get rid of this damn headache? It's been around for a week. It must be symbolic of something. (And nothing as vain as school, I'm sure.)
>>: # Thursday, January 06, 2005 _
I'm fairly certain most people are mindless automatons who shout out whatever random thing they are feeling at the time. Your jokes are not funny. You are not intelligent. You are not better than am I.
I was counting on high school to make the students magically smarter. I can't count on college for that either, apparently. It will probably help a bit, but I'll still be forced to converse with the most droll of human beings with no insightful things to say or the ability not to be fucking cookie-cutter.
This realization is what has made me more bitter over the years in high school, and I can't see that it will stop any time soon. This is a warning, to all of the ridiculously dull and insipid people out there: I will steamroll you if you rub me the wrong way. Just watch for it.
And it will be a tactical strike. I will wait until you are your most vulnerable, and then I will unload a barrage of contextual guilt upon you from the likes of which no mortal would ever be able to emerge victorious. You will then admit my superiority and it will be glorious.
But probably not. You're probably not worth that much of my time. We'll see if I can manage to do it without exerting some sort of effort. I'm good at that.