Why do I rack my brain with thoughts like these? Nothing ever comes of it, and I am just left feeling more confused. Consequently, this type of thing is all I've set my life up to be. Worse yet, I can't take a fucking stance on anything.
Even this thought is one of those thoughts.
Another thought is that I'm too weak mentally to handle it. That's pretty disgusting, too.
I had a call for help here initially, but I can't let myself sink that low. That is one thing on which I can decide. I don't even know whether or not this is all justified, given the idea that everything is meaningless.
I envy conservatives.