you should check out chroipahtz, he's from germany
>>: # Sunday, December 03, 2006 _
It's like when you go back through a photo album and throw embarrassing or painful memories on the fire. But that simple act doesn't get rid of them. Even if you realize this, maybe it brings you temporary escape to pretend.
I can't even bring myself to open the photo album. And that means I can't add any new photos either.
There are things I now must address. Expect some changes. For the worse.
I know I can survive, just like you know that you can as well. I want to exist forever but I don't want to be alone.
The problem I face now is that the void of companionship is growing larger, and I really need a female friend I can relate to. At the same time, I'm falling away from the 'group' and it's even more painful.
I'm also having difficulty examining my own photo albums. I'm finding a lot of things I wished I still had. And deciding what the world should see is even harder.